Sunday, April 27, 2008
I got to sit in the stress test area in a cush recliner the whole time. I brought a few mags and slept a little. It wasn't so bad after that first hour. I was there from 8:30-12:30 and by the time I got to food I was a bit shaky and nauseous again but after an hour or so I was OK.
Nurse said she'll call me Monday with results. PLEASE, please say a prayer for me that I pass this thing. What she described I will have to do if I am diagnosed with gestational sounds like a big PAIN...hoping that I do not have to deal with all of that.
I did meet a wonderful lady who came in about half way through. She was sitting in the recliner next to me listening to her boy's heart beat. She's my age and we got to chatting away and it really helped pass the time. The really cool part is I think I was supposed to meet her and hear her story that day. She kept talking about her "first pregnancy" yada yada and I finally asked "oh, what do you have at home a boy or girl"? "I don't" she said, "my baby girl died at 35 weeks gestation a year ago last month". Ouch. Regretfully, I know a few people that have endured that kind of loss and I also know of some bloggers now too. Normal people would flinch at that and probably that would be a conversation killer. However, I immediately told her how sorry I was for her loss and asked what her baby girl's name was. We talked for a while about the baby she lost and what happened. We skipped around and talked about fun stuff too. Eventually we came back to that topic and she thanked me for the things I said to her and for understanding how therapeutic it was for her to talk about her daughter to other people. To acknowledge that she was still a mom, a parent even though she had no baby to hold. You see next week she will be 35 weeks and that is the week that she lost her baby. So for her the next few weeks are wrought with anxiety. Not like you aren't anxious enough at that stage of the game. Of course she's being seen like 3 times a week from here til she delivers this time around and rightly so. That helps the anxiety levels I'm sure. Bottom line for me, is that she made me see, that as much as I have been MISERABLE this pregnancy compared to last, I'm extremely fortunate and I don't have problems. I absolutely can not imagine making it to 35 weeks and not bringing a baby home. My heart goes out to anyone who has lost a child. I love this baby and Lord knows I can't wait for her to be OUT but I definitely don't want her here before she can thrive. I'm sure I'll still have my hormonal moments but my time with Diana made me decide to make a better effort to enjoy what I have left of this pregnancy. I mean who isn't miserable in the third trimester?? Ha!
I'm burning the midnight oil tonight. Mike and I are baby free this weekend. Lindsay is at Camp Grandmama and Granddada. I took a nap this afternoon and then spent the rest of the day purging all of the winter stuff out of Lindsay's closet. Washing clothes and hanging all the rest of the summer stuff. I bagged up 5 XL zip lock storage bags of 18 month clothing to be pulled out again oh say around Fall 2009. LOL! Unreal the amount of clothing we have for this kid. Thanks to Missy and Graison for being so generous and the awesome consignment shopping! I'm finished all my put zing around in her room and tomorrow (today), when I wake up, it's time to get packing up more junk in the guest room/Linds' big girl room. We've picked out a paint color and it's time to get serious and get that room empty so Mike and his paint crew (my inlaws) can get some "pure violet" on the walls!!!
Missy and her hubs were also kid free this weekend so we took advantage and went out for an ADULT dinner! It was awesome. We didn't meet until 8pm but dinner was great and we closed the place down. It was nearly midnight when we got home. I've been on my second wind folding and putting away laundry and such. I wanted to check out the blogs and wind down so I'm off to bed finally. I'll be hating life tomorrow if I sleep too late. Lots to do and I'm moving at a turtle's pace these days!
If you're still with me on this long post, thanks for reading. Check in Monday night for the test results...
No matter what happens BON JOVI on Wednesday will make it ALL BETTER!!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Here she is!! Apparently baby girl was giving the tech a hard time. Her hands were around her face a ton and she was moving so much it was hard to get a super good shot. I was really hoping for a face front shot but it just didn't happen. The big fluffy stuff around the top of her head that looks like a beret or a chef's hat...that's the placenta. TMI?? Sorry. I have to say this place is NEW and they still had a few kinks to work out. I got several printed pics because they were having some trouble with their printer. The cd and dvd are nice but a lot of the pics are so blurry you can't make anything out. The girl was fresh out of school and Mike and I both are wondering if a more experienced sonographer would have gotten us more for our money. Live and learn I suppose. We still had fun. We invited Aunt Pat, Mike's parents and Aunt KK and we also brought Lindsay. I had no idea she would react poorly but she did NOT like seeing mommy on the table. Aunt KK had to take her in and out of the room a couple of times. (Thanks Karen)! It will be interesting to see how she reacts to me in the hospital bed.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Quick update: I'm off the edge of my cliff (today) and I scheduled my 3 hour test for this Friday morning so wish me luck. UGH. The antibiotic is kicking in a bit and today is the best I've felt in weeks (shhhh.....don't say it aloud).
Tomorrow we're going to a place called Peek A Belly for a 4-D ultrasound. Turns out we're not sure if we can get a 4D this time at my peri office and I'm not taking any chances. Things have been "different" this time around with them between my insurance changes and other circumstances. For instance with Lindsay, we got video of all of our ultrasounds. They no longer video ANYTHING. I have SO many pics of Lindsay and video and an early 4-D and a late 3-D scan of her. I feel badly that this baby has less. So we decided what the heck we'll put it on the Flex Spending Account and go for it. So, with any luck we'll have a beautiful couple of 4-D pics for the blog. We're doing the "Just a Peek Package" so it isn't too expensive. It will be nice to have the scan on DVD for memory sake.
Also, several of you have asked me when the C-section is going to be. I'm a bit apprehensive about posting the exact date for just ANYONE to see. If you want to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org I'll be happy to dish about it with you. I realize I do have a ticker and it's not that difficult to pinpoint but there are some crazy people out there you know.
That's about it for now. I PROMISE, PROMISE that I have some really cute zoo pics to post still. I know Katie gave up on me. LOL! I'm sure the ultrasound tomorrow will preempt them again but I will get them on here sooner or later.
Oh and here's a quick funny for you all. Tonight the baby kicked me hard enough to startle me during dinner. I said "oh, the baby just kicked me". Lindsay then put her hand on her belly and said "MY baby kicked me". Mike and I cracked up! She has been saying "baby come out soon" a lot and even talked about other people having a baby in their belly too (even though they don't). But, this was the first time she referenced a baby in HER belly. Too funny! I just can't wait for her little sister to get here and see how she reacts!
I'm heading to bed now....More tomorrow!
Monday, April 21, 2008
Last night I was feeling awful, sinus headache, drainage more of the same I've been dealing with for WEEKS now. I woke up this morning puking again and decided to stay home from work. I'm SO over being sick and was already feeling the downward mood swing when my nurse called and said I FAILED my one hour glucose test. SERIOUSLY???? I never even worried about passing it. Now I have to go back and do the THREE hour test. This entails fasting for 8-12 hours before going into the office. They do a blood draw and then you get to drink a BIGGER nasty drink than the one hour. They then draw your blood every hour for the next three hours for the results. You can't eat until after that and I was STARVING after the one hour test. Not to mention if you get sick (puke) you have to do it all over again. There is NO WAY I can get through that with all this congestion. I know I won't keep it down. She offered to let me put it off until early next week but I have to do it soon because it's supposed to be completed by your 28th week which I am 28 weeks on Sunday.
I know that this really probably doesn't SOUND like the end of the world but in my current state of mind I completely broke down and cried when I hung up the phone. I feel like I just can't catch a break. I know that a lot of people fail the one hour and pass the three hour no problem. BUT....I don't want to assume that since I completely never thought I'd fail the one hour. Oh, and the numbers were close. 130 and under is normal and my number was 159. Just another shot in the jaw thank you. I do worry that because I am not exercising like I was with Lindsay and I started this pregnancy a bit heavier that maybe I will end up diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes. I know that the point of all of this is to catch it early and take the action
needed to maintain a healthy pregnancy but I just feel pissed off more than anything right now.
I'm trying to look forward to the fact that BON JOVI is a week from this Wednesday. My baby shower is that Saturday after the concert and my blog sister KIM is coming into town for that! I have some good stuff coming up...thankfully.
Anyway, I guess that's the good thing about mood swings....it goes both ways. I could sure use an upswing about now.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
It was a nice day to grab some sandwiches and head to the park for a picnic dinner. I love this profile shot of Lindsay on the move. She's growing up so fast!
I was resting up on the blanket but managed to catch the game of chase using my zoom...which is why it's a bit blurry.
The tides have turned and Lindsay is chasing Mike. She loves to run! When she runs she laughs and yells "I runnin" it's very cute! After the park we had to pick up Mike's car he left at the shop parking lot earlier today. On the way there we noticed that the "HOT" sign was on at the Krispy Kreme....apparently so did everyone else. That place was hopping with business tonight!
Lindsay applies for a job....
SO CUTE! She was in such a good mood!
Time to make the doughnuts! Lindsay is watching through the window and our KK guy poses for a shot in the background! If you look very closely you can see the doughnuts going through the conveyor about to be glazed.
Finally Lindsay gets her taste! It's her first HOT off the belt Krispy Kreme!
Can you say SUGAR RUSH???
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Lindsay & Graison enjoying some cupcakes!
Graison is into hers but Lindsay hasn't quite figured out she can get messy yet! Doesn't G look just like a china doll in this picture?! Such a pretty face!
Graison's mommy playing "I'm gonna eat your cupcake" with Lindsay. Check out G's face. She's saying "Don't eat Lindsay's cupcake mommy!!!" She was actually upset about it. Lindsay thought it was funny. We do that with her all the time at home to trick her into another bite or two!
I had to lighten this pic up a bit. Thought it was cute of all the girls lined up checking out the adult cake. Which by the way...this chocolate cake was THE BOMB! YUMMY!
Here is Zoe enjoying a strawberry. I didn't get one of her and Lindsay together. I'm bummed about that. Zoe and Lindsay are two months apart and they really are cute together!
Zoe opening all her loot. Her Daddy is helping and so are all the girls!
Lindsay is sporting her Rubber Ducky Mardi Gras beads that Aunt KK brought her back from New Orleans last week. She's wearing them EVERYWHERE!!! The ducks actually squeak too. Very cool!
Check out the birthday girl! I love this shot. She is actually wearing a back pack, TWO purses, some dress up shoes and her new sunglasses! Girls are SO much fun!!
Happy Birthday Zoe! Thanks for inviting us!
We had a packed day today! After the party Lindsay and I went home for some nap time. Then we went to the park with daddy, ran some errands and ended the day at Krispy Kreme. You would think a quick stop for a doughnut would be no big deal but it became a BLOG WORTHY experience. Stay tuned...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
I still promise zoo pics. SOON, Katie soon!
For those of you who have asked we'll definitely get something up on the blog once baby makes her appearance. I may be borrowing a friends laptop to use at the hospital. If not, I'll have my pal Missy post some pics for me so you will all see the first debut photos for sure!
Doing MUCH better today with the ligament pain. Can't say enough for my new belly band support thingy! It's a bit uncomfortable to sit in all day and annoying to adjust every time I have to go to the bathroom. However, the alternative is much worse.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Sunday, April 13, 2008
I'm looking at 13 weeks or LESS!!!!
I'm seriously flipping over being in the double digits now. SOOOO much to do SOOOOOO little time!!
The gloom and doom side is I'm freaking out that more is not done at my house and I'm REALLY SLOWING down. The evenings are spent having some braxton hicks now and I'm having trouble picking Lindsay up at the end of the day.
The bright side is I'm DEFINITELY in the 90 day stretch of saying HASTA LAVISTA to my job for THREE WHOLE months!!! I'll feel great once this baby is here and we can start focusing on being a family of FOUR!! And yes, then I will be on my "FAB TO FORTY PLAN"...Stay tuned on that but let's just say it involves a double stroller, a LOT of walking/running and a big fat trip to the gorgeous blue waters of the carribean (without kids) WHEN I meet my goal (December 2009)!
Seriously honey...you better start a trip fund 'cause I'm not kidding!!
We're off to spend some family time today at the zoo with Lindsay's Aunt Agatha and Uncle Paul. Agatha's sister has four girls all under 5 years old. Three of them and their parents are going with us to the zoo. It's going to be so much fun! Stay tuned for pics!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Hope you had a great birthday Adam and a fun spring break! Can't wait to see all the pictures on your Dad's blog!
Thursday, April 10, 2008
This will be Lindsay's big girl bed. We already have the matching nightstand you partially see to the left. The bedding looks great with the colors. I was worried it would be too yellow but it looks awesome. I think painting the room the light purple will really make it pop.
She will have the bed and this chest in her room at first. The night stand and the dresser below is in the nursery now. We're eventually going to put both girls together in the big room. So we're adding pieces now. When baby B is ready for her big girl bed that is all we'll have left to buy. Then the nursery will become a playroom (which I'm sure we'll desperately need by then).
We currently use this dresser without the mirror and it doubles as a changer in the nursery.
At any rate we're waiting to purchase furniture as I have to sell/store the current old furniture in that room (my single girl bedroom suit) and empty and paint the room.
This is our Black Hummer...with a coat of yellow snow. Gotta love Spring time!
I know I have lots to be thankful for too. I'm thankful I have so many wonderful blogger pals to help lift me up. I know I have been venting more than I like on the old blog lately. Thanks for all your sweet comments of recent. I'm also very thankful that even though I've been so under the weather it's not affecting the baby girl. She's doing great and fortunately she is pretty protected from all of the crud that is affecting me! That's a relief. When it comes down to it, that's all that matters.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Wearing Uncle Steve's hatCutie smile!
Tribute to Elton John...
Monday, April 7, 2008
I feel like I'm NEVER going to get 100% better again. Or maybe, once I have this baby my immune system can start giving back to me and I can fight all this crud off. It doesn't help that I'm stressed beyond belief at work these days. I am dying to make some changes on that front but seriously...a job interview or a transfer to a new department at six months prego??? I'd be laughed at right? Even though that isn't supposed to factor into it...it does. So I'm trapped, for now. However, I'm on top of it and once this baby is here I'm taking back control. I wish now this blog was a little more anonymous so I could really let loose but I can't. I will say this...KARMA is a wonderful thing. Sort of like a boom-a-rang...mean people will get it back TEN FOLD!
Moving on...you guys all have me TERRIFIED to go back to the ducks! SHEESH! Scary stuff. I could easily see something like that getting out of control. I will definitely be on my mommy guard even more when/if we go back.
Ok...I'm feeling like crud but wanted to hop on quickly and check in with everyone. Thanks for reading my vent.
Not much on tap for this week. Just trying to make it through without losing my mind.
Friday, April 4, 2008
Here are a few pictures from two different days back in March. One of our newest fun (free) things to do with Lindsay has been to go up to the marina and feed the ducks. She just LOVES it and will ask to go!
Check out how bold these guys are. Of course Mike is making sure the ones behind them mind their manners around Lindsay! She likes to be in charge of the bread!
Seriously, these guys are fed well. They hang out right next to a restaurant and they're very happy. They also are not shy as you can see.
Here is Lindsay with "My KK" as she now calls her. I have to give KK credit as this was her idea in the first place. The local Subway gives KK they're burned or old bread whenever she pops by and inquires if they have any "duck food".
Yep, we're having fun!
Thursday, April 3, 2008
I think this dress is a little busy for the belly shot but since we haven't found time to do another one here it is...this was taken on Easter Sunday if you couldn't guess.